i am what i feel - only when i feel,

i feel alive.

i am a teacher, writer, story teller, lover of art, curious wonderer and hopefully your dear friend - fascinated by human potential and human capacities to take on life in earth’s school.

i grew up in poverty, battling my emotional needs in childhood, taking on protective role over my caregiver from a very young age. as a child, i developed a strong masculine protector and warrior as an archetype, and re-discovered my feminine side in later years of my life. while childhood wasn’t easy with wars, poverty, fear of survival and constant scarcity, i was very aware of my inner compas and higher powers in play finding etherial reasons for all the earth drama and trauma. i studied myself, my family, people, past, future and developed fascination about emotions, feelings, energies in play, spirit of the soul’s calling and human potential. for years i dove into mind and body experiences, backed up by science and mysticism on both sides of the matter - one without the other gets us lost. when all fails, we look up. when all is good, we look around us. i learned of unlimited love that grew after each loss (loss of love and rejection, loss to suicide, depression, trauma, loss of hope, will and zest for life, that i’ve witnessed over and over again in my surroundings, and some underneath my own skin). still, i found the way to ever strongly believe in unique goodness that lives in our hearts, in kindness and love so potent as medicine for everything and everyone.

to this day, more persistent than ever, i fight for love, for potential in us, kind hearts and care for one another, bigger than we can imagine, because i believe. i too have a dream.

i believe that we have unimaginable yet strength, uniqueness and powers within that we are here to discover. the journey of discovery makes the life adventurous and daring. 

my ongoing studies and resources

  • Peter levine: somatic therapy

    dan siegel: mental helath and mindsight

    Stephen porges: polyvagal theory

    stanislav grof: transpersonal psychology

    deb dana: be-friending your nervious system

    byron katie: method of self-inquiry

    tara brach: compassion and wisdom in psychotherapy

    c.jung: analytical psychology

    maxwell malts: Psycho-Cybernetics

    wilhem reich: bioelectricity in sexuality and anxiety, the function of the orgasm

    russel targ: parapsychology and remote viewing

    martha sweezy: internal-family systems

    Rupert Sheldrake: morphogenesis and morphic resonance

  • marina abramovic: peromance art, the relationship between the performer and audience, the limits of the body, and the possibilities of the mind

    richard rudd: Gene Keys Synthesis, an integral matrix of all human evolutionary potential

    Marc Gafni: spiritual teaching with a focus on integral theory, eros, and outrageous love

  • Carl.J calleman: quantum science of the Maya, the phenomenology of psychedelics and altered states of consciousness

    Edgar Cayce: clairvoyant healing and psychic medical readings

    abraham hicks: channeling collective consciousness

    Ram Dass: works on eastern spirituality

    gary zukav: transformation in human consciousness

    Graham Hancock: pseudoscientific ideas about ancient civilizations and hypothetical lost lands.

    Barbara Hand-Claw: channeler of inhabitants from the Pleiades star cluster

    Susan G. Shumsky: divine revelations, meditation, intuition, prayer, auras, chakras

    regina meredith: pioneer of conscious media

  • madame blavatsky: Science, Religion and Philosophy

    manly hall: mysticism, magic, and ancient philosophies

    george gurdjijeff: approach to human spiritual growth through 4th way practices

    A.P. Sinnett: esoteric buddism

    Hermes Trismegistus: egyptian-greekwisdom texts

    Goethe: plays, poetry and aesthetic criticism

    hegel: philosophy of art